The Dope Show

2004-03-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

i'm here to announce, rather unhappily, that my 15 year old virginal eyebrows have been deflowered.
and now my facial expressions like, perpetually angry.
oh well. shopped like kerrraaaazy today.
but it was fun!
hahahah we bought retro dresses that we'll probably only wear like once in our entire lives.
then we got earrings, necklaces, bangles and handbags to go with our dresses.
all of which will probably be used only once.
haha. it's a girl thing.

2004-03-18T11:50:00.000+08:00

charli's gigantic house. is. gigantic.
and her car door is automatic.
like how more rich can you get?!

we walked to xuan's house at night
through this really really deserted road
we kept imagining some FACE was gonna appear in the bushes or something,
then for some reason we all started running!! hahahahaha
we ended up at some playground near Henry Park where me and charli got sick on some curly ride. hahaha
finally reached xuan's house. rolled around on her nice smelling bed then cabbed back to charli's place.
we watched that new show.. incredible tales or something. THE ONE WITH UTT!! =D
then whenever they played the scary music me and bianca would hide behind a pillow and scream haha..
after the show sarah came. and i can't remember what happened next so.. yah.

yah anyway the next morning charli sarah and xuan had to go back to school for class
so me and bianca decided to follow them!
we wore crescent uniform and crashed their lecture haha
but it got boring so we sneaked out halfway
i FINALLY, after ten thousand years, saw FRANCINE again.
(no thanks to YOU, suanwee.)
breakfast at macs, got free ice cream (?!)
then back to charli's house where we made up for lost sleep! haha!
then.. town.
called kelvin down to borrow his I/C but after bowling everyone was too tired for pool!
so kelvin made a wasted trip, I'M SORRY KELVIN.
went to Lips, then decided we all needed sleep.
all go home.
then on the bus jack called
and i FORGOT i was supposed to meet him cos nigel ps-ed him
and because i FORGOT, indirectly i ps-ed him too!
but then i was like too tired to think straight so yah i just went home.
I'M SORRY JACKASS! i'll get you your Gallardo when i'm rich yah?
and now, i shall go to sleep.

if i could, then i would
i'll go wherever you will go

2004-03-13T11:39:00.000+08:00

nothing lasts forever though we want it to
the road ahead holds different dreams for me and you..

sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart
is the only way for destiny..
sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way now for you and me
though it's the hardest thing to say,
i'll miss your love in every way..
so say goodbye
but don't you cry..
cos true love never dies.

2004-03-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

great. i spent my birthday taking attendance for sec ones and stroking with Daniel.
okay that sounds bad. stroking as in badminton stroking, not stroking stroking.
yahh. anyway! thankew all you sweet people who remembered, thank you so much.
thankew for all the presents, although the taxi driver wasn't too happy haha..
but yah thankew so much everyone i love you all muack muacks.

the best present i got this year was a letter. a short letter, on a piece of foolscap.
i know it's just a piece of paper, but to me.. it's really the most meaningful present. thank you.

2004-03-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

okay in exactly two hours, it'll be the end of his birthday and the start of mine.
i have this horrible feeling that it's gonna be the worst birthday of my life.
and i don't want to be awake at 12 midnight!
so farewell loyal readers,
for the bed begs my presence.

2004-03-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

if Shek gets me another stuffed toy for my birthday,
it shall become my FOOTREST.

2004-03-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

would you leave everything you've ever loved -
for somewhere you're not even sure exists?

welcome to the fallout
welcome to resistance
the tension is here,
tension is here.
between who you are
and who you could be
between how it is;
and how it should be_

2004-03-06T11:28:00.000+08:00

nothing's wrong
just as long as you know
that someday i will

someday; somehow_
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday; somehow_
gonna make it alright
_______________________but not right now

2004-03-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

wouldn't it be cool if i died like one day before my birthday?

2004-02-29T09:38:00.000+08:00

and while he wishes he could escape this
but it all seems so contagious
not to be yourself and faceless
like a song that has no soul

i remember feeling low
i remember losing hope
and I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped..

we are all innocent?
i think not, bruthaaa.

2004-02-28T19:26:00.000+08:00

i did it i did it i did it!!
i feel like i've been set free!
of course there was that irritating stabbing in the heart,
but there's nothing to regret.
because i don't deserve your shit,
i really don't think i do.

badminton in the morning!
i've been talking to this sec 1 girl, suzy, alot recently.
guess we get along well cos we're so similar.. in just about everything
what we like to drink, our style of playing badminton..
even our preferred kind of guys! ;)
we even share the same birthday.. 8 March, so we call each other SanBa haha..
i haven't known her for very long, my guess is around 2 weeks
but already i feel really attached to her.
it's like, i can tell her things i don't normally trust people with.
she's so.. herself, yet so.. me.
i swear we're so alike it's pretty scary.

and while we're on the subject of confidantes,
i must say i miss feiqian.
and her high-maintanence friendship >_<

the show must go on.

2004-02-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

on a cobweb afternoon,
in a room full of emptiness_
by a freeway;
i confess i was lost in the pages
of a book full of death
reading how we'll die alone
if we're good we'll lay to rest
anywhere we want to go

on my deathbed i will pray
to the gods and the angels
like a pagan;
to anyone who will take me to heaven
to a place i recall
i was there so long ago
the sky was bruised,
the world was bled;
and there you led me on_

2004-02-27T14:13:00.000+08:00

seems like alot of stuff that used to matter to me
just don't matter anymore.
its like a long long dream, nightmare if you wish, that i've just woken up from.
i want my ice cream.
my newly discovered caramel almond fudge! =D

i still have this msg chee png sent me about a week ago..
"the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return"
love? hah.
yes i'm ashamed of my own cynicism right now but i just don't perceive love the way i used to.
and michael, please spare me your prosaic stories of true love and eternal bliss.
go feed them to a 5 year old or something, these things don't work on me anymore.
i never thought i'd be this skeptical about life, but well. i am now.

2004-02-27T13:54:00.000+08:00

we are not crazy;
we are our senses amplified_

2004-02-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

tianlongs leaving tmr..! ='(
he's going to HongKong to work..
CHICKEN FLU
me and feimao are demanding souvenirs.
i hope he brings me william hung.

take care tianlong..! we'll miss you!

2004-01-29T18:33:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened today.. except in Home Econs, which was damn eventful hahaha!
we were supposed to make salad, and Daniaal Faris put so much mayonnaise in his that it looked like porridge!!
looked like he freaking CAME into his salad bowl lor hahahahaha =X
some more jenny said it was sour!
then everyone was saying maybe his cum expired liao hahahha bunch of horny people!
love em love em love em.

2004-01-29T16:46:00.000+08:00

Qantas Airlines - The Evil Red Kangaroo That Took Leslie Away

2004-01-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

leslie left for australia today.
and i miss him already!
kind of a zhen qing farewell..
i never thought there'd be a day where i would willingly hug leslie gan jia hao!
i didn't even expect to cry when we watched his plane take off..
of course there were the lame jokes like his plane crashing and him having to row a sampan to melbourne..
terribly lame, but yeah.. no doubt lightened the atmosphere.
i really really really honestly miss leslie now that he's gone.
in fact, i miss the whole of 2/2.
even the guaikias.

2004-01-10T12:28:00.000+08:00

sugar sugar how you get so fly?

2004-01-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

3/four rocks.
although i really can't imagine myself spending the next 2 years with the people in my class..
but altogether there are some pretty neat changes.
we get to eat in class
and we get to decorate our tables.
yeah okay, vandalise our tables.
and our teacher sweats alot.
not to mention talks alot.

in he comes with his checkered hankerchief and perpetual puddle of perspiration, sprouting tales of his youth - where his raging hormones overtook what little common sense he had.

2004-01-01T17:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last day i allowed myself to cry for you.
it was the last day i allowed myself to regret
and the last day i allowed myself to feel for you.
today, and from now on -
you're history ;)

2003-12-28T11:57:00.000+08:00

you've made my mind up for me
when you started to ignore me
you won't see a single tear
it isn't gonna happen here

at least not today..
not today, not today.. cuz

if it's over let it go and
come tomorrow it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday..
i'm just a bird thats already flown away
laugh it off, let it go and
when you wake up it will seem
so yesterday, so yesterday..
haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay..

if youre over me
~~i'm already over you~~

*i will find myself again.

but life before you seems incomplete.

2003-12-27T20:29:00.000+08:00

caught Ju-On 2 today..
bloody waste of time!
i mean it was like a frickin COMEDY.
we kept laughing whenever the vengeful little white boy appeared.
the naked vengeful little white boy.
tsk. no sense of decency!
he's indecent, he's white, and he provokes strong reactions.
aspiring marilyn manson, no?

2003-12-20T03:12:00.000+08:00

okay i'm now at TianLong's friend's lan shop..
with feiqian yvette and jenny..
oh wait kenneth ng is here too.
jolyn just went back.
got really drunk at racer's edge today..
shocking revelations:

- i frenched both jolyn and jenny.
- dirrrrty danced with jolyn.
- did some stuff that all of us really really really regret i'm sure
- tianlong and his nice friend stella took care of us X)

it seems quite amusing now, despite the seriousness of the situation.
yeah. so now we're at this lan shop in holland v rotting away.
and yvettes so nice she bought me noodles and water when i was drunk XP
thank you yvee!
oh and thanks tianlong for the lime juice.. and for tolerating us.. haha
thankew jenny for every hug you've given me and every reassuring word..
thankew jolyn for insisting i didn't need anyone but you.. HAH..
thankew feiqian for.. being you X)

i love you all.

2003-12-15T12:49:00.000+08:00

sarah's leaving for vancouver today! =(
she may be back for christmas..
but then again she may not.
this solely depends on the brattery of her stupid brother,
whom i am beginning to detest.
i now say, with absolutely no reservations,
that i hope he skiis into a christmas tree.
or gets eaten by a seemingly harmless evil snowman.

have fun sarah.. =(
we'll miss you.

2003-12-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

we shall tour the entire world before we are 25
and take over hawaii in less-than-modest apparel..!

charli ness sarah merelda amanda noelle nad cindy weiling mojojojo chilli-mountain and my dear princess!

i love y'all..!

2003-12-13T00:07:00.000+08:00

one day -
one day i will just crack.

don't push me.

2003-12-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

charli's house just gets more fun everytime.
i love you guys so much, seriously.
woke up in her HOME CINEMA today, went for cheese prata
cabbed to town in the backseat of the world's most annoying taxi driver.
caught love actually.
cried like fuck.
its good y'all really. five stars.
haha me and cin were sniffling in each other's arms.
dinner at paragon.
everyone went back.
me and sarah had a nice long long talk.
amazing how our situations are so alike.
i love you sarah!
and cindy and ness and bianca and charli.
and everyone else who couldnt make it yesterday and today too.

--loveactually.

2003-12-09T16:52:00.000+08:00

and in case anyone's wondering, i want a Lamborghini for Christmas.

2003-12-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

whichever andrew it is terrorising my tagboard, i suggest you leave quietly before you really offend charli.

caught brother bear again last night.
yes, i know i'm stupid, and no, i'm not mad.

anywayys.. you know those black boards in the glass casing,
with all the white letters that say what time the movies start and all..
we broke the lock for the glass casing and started rearranging the letters hahahaha.. =D
we made all the NC-16s into NC-61s
turned Today's Screening Time into Today's Screwing Time
modified Master and Commander to read Masterbate Commander
edited Brother Bear into Brother Bra
and of course, couldn't resist changing Duplex to Durex

life is gooood. hahaha.

2003-11-28T12:34:00.000+08:00

it takes bigger balls to stand up for what you believe in
than to judge another's way of life.
you came to see the mobscene
I know it isn't your scene
it's better than a sex scene
and it's so fucking obscene
obscene, yeah-.

2003-11-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

i feel like i didn't wake up today.
or rather - i don't feel like myself.
it's an odd feeling.
i am amazingly calm.
void of any emotion.
but then again i've been feeling like that alot lately.

i need books.
and coffee.
lots of it.
now.

2003-11-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

hah! i have just manipulated Michael
into doing Adie's template for her!
he didn't even protest.
no kick. tskk.
oh well, maybe it just goes to show that once again,
i have underestimated the stupidity of the male species.
anyway Adie, if your template turns out really ugly,
it wasn't me.

2003-11-27T12:38:00.000+08:00

the drugs.. they say..
make us feel so hollow..
we love.. in vain..
narcissistic and so shallow..
the cops and queers..
to swim you have to swallow..
hate.. today..
there's no love for tomorrow.

2003-11-26T17:24:00.000+08:00

"are you going out?"
"uh huh."
"then move it. i've got clients coming over soon."

-- saith The Mother.

obviously not an advocate of the tactful approach.

2003-11-26T01:03:00.000+08:00

once again, my wonderful little sister has tricked me into doing her homework for her.
third time this month!
what, do i look like her personal compo writer here?
*grumbles-.
250 words on the importance of Art and Culture.
the topics get stupider and stupider everytime dammit!

alrite. Art & Culture is very important. very very very important. without Art & Culture we would descend to the level of intellectually starved animals who spend their time smoking weed and getting on Jerry Springer. people who don't allow Art & Culture into their lives can be easily spotted - majority of them do not trim their nose hair, which therefore often potrudes out offensively, creating a somewhat repugnant appearance. their conversation also lacks a certain je ne sais quoi; unless of course they are bloody french, and adorable.. like Fanfan La Tulipe! =D cultureless people talk about the price of cucumbers and why bread always falls on the buttered side, and other such inane things. you will never hear them mention Van Gogh or Rembrandt, or Francis Bacon.. because they are but cultureless idiots. they will be despised and mocked at by the rest of society for their incompetence. they will fill their empty days with frivolous frivolity, and eventually die never having tasted the sweet ambrosia of culture.
i therefore find it incumbent upon me to promote artisticness wherever i tread. if i meet a low-bowed person i force them into a philosophical conversation, by asking them "Why Are We Here?" often their answers are facetious. we of superior intellect must not judge them too harshly however, for it is compassion that makes the world go round.

hell i'm good. when my sister reads this she'll hate me so much, but at least she'll write her own compos from now. X)

2003-11-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

okay today was definitely one of the best days of my insignificant life!
*big fat grin-.
went back to RG for the funfair.. got high in the haunted house!
netballed.. had a water balloon fight.. and screamed The Mari Kita Song while trying to do flag raising hahaha..
then cabbed to town..
AND WE GOT TATTOOS!!
kae it was really ticklish, and now we're supposed to apply powder all the time.
but who cares! now me ness nad and sarah have the same celtic symbol above our butts! =D
haha then we got really high and ran up to the roof on paragon..
climbed riiiight to the edge and started waving at all the tiny people below.. hahahahah
THEN.
i stole a toilet sign.
hahahahah those yellow plastic stands that say "CAUTION - WET FLOOR"
went to the flower shop and bought a piece of wrapping paper..
then wrapped up the sign to look like a present.. smuggled it out..
and ran up to the roof again..!
hahahhaha then we screamed "WE STOLE THE TOILET SIGN" to everyone below but i think no one cared.
aii today was.. crazy =)
i love ness nad and sarah.
and charli merliao and aman.
and francine alicia weiling noelle.
and mojojojo. and chilli mountain. and kiku!
and bianca.

*i'm a happy girl =)

AND I'M STILL HIGH..!!
hahahahahahah.

2003-10-21T09:45:00.000+08:00

To the butt hole who so cruelly pissed my Vanessa Loh Siyi off --

Dear Genitalia Head,
I would like you to know, that if i ever see you on the streets, i wil impale you with a blunt 2B pencil and fry your ugly eyeballs with CheeSeng Sesame Oil. Then I will pull out all your greasy hair and weave it into a carpet which shall be stomped upon by whoever visits me. After which I will cut off your big flappy lips so you'll quit bitching about my baby girl and then i'll decapitate you and throw your sorry pieces in a blender to make bubble tea and start a franchise! so heed my warning, O Smelly One, and hide thy horrendous face from the world forevermore.

*its not a threat, its a promise, jackass.

2003-08-28T12:39:00.000+08:00

i wonder if anyone ever died by inhaling jellybeans. hmm.
i don't think so.
therefore. i declare jellybeans to be safe!
and hereby proclaim the box of jellybeans i found in the kitchen, MINE.

i haven't been going for counselling
*does corny Victory sign with two fingers-.
i don't think i need any more crap on my non-existent attitude problem or my refusal to sing the damn marikita song.
so there. i'm not going for counselling.
make me.
bring back the kick of defying your pathetic rules.